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May 21
May 1
Piece of Inspiration
Read this today and wanted to share it…
Nobody tells this to people who are beginners. I wish someone had told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple of years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And you taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase; they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know that it’s normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you finish one piece. It’s only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take a while. It’s normal to take a while. You just gotta fight your way through. –Ira Glass
Mar 19
Making a Plan
So I finally started P90X this weekend. It’s hard, but I will try and stick with it. (Plyo is hard! Forget waterboarding, make terrorists do Plyometrics!) It is something different, so I like the change.
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about why I do certain things. Why I continue certain actions even though it might not make any sense, or even be good for me. A good example is something that happened when I was cooking.
A few weeks ago, I went and bought a tub of that new cooking cream by Philadelphia. There was a coupon in the paper for $1.50 off and I decided to try it out. The dish tasted well, but the following morning I had a serious case of acid reflux. It was bad. So bad, I had to choke down a cup of the very nasty tasting throat coat by Yogi teas. It tastes horrible, but it is very effective.
I started thinking – Why did I add the cream? I remembered thinking that the dish was good before I added the cream. Yet I went ahead and used it. But why? Yes, I wanted to try it out, but I KNEW before I used it that it might be a bad idea. So why did I go along? Because that was what the recipe said to do.
I started to think this might be a habit with me. I do certain things, because I’m just following the directions. My instincts may say that it is a bad idea, but I just follow like a lemming. Where does my brain go? I just have to get better about seeing the big picture. Not just with food, but everyday things. What is my life going to look like in 5 years? 10? I don’t need to have fully detailed plan, but I do need to be long term. These last few years, I’ve been kind of drifting and I need to stop. In less than a month, I will be 34. Time to have a plan to take me to 40.
Big life questions aside, I still want to enjoy the random funny things that happen. Sometimes the unexpected is the best life moment. Like when I went on that money hunt and I found a DVD set of Sex in the City Season 3. That one left me scratching my head. I have no idea where it came from, but now it is in my collection of DVDs.
Or last weekend when I went to visit my aunt. I hadn’t seen her in a month or so and we started talking about movies. I mentioned that I finally saw The Social Network, which lead her to exclaim, “And did you see the Academy Awards! I couldn’t believe that was Trent Reznor. That’s the same guy that was screaming and running around on stage a few years ago at that concert.” I laughed for a good five minutes. My aunt is in her late 50’s. How awesome is it that she knows who Trent Reznor is?
I need a plan, but I want it to be adaptable. In some ways, I just want things to be on autopilot. But I guess things like life planning shouldn’t be that way. I don’t want to add a bad ingredient that ruins the whole dish, just because the plans said so. If you do that, you just end up making yourself sick.
Mar 1
I think I held the string too tight…
I heard this story once– Buddah was sitting by the side of a river when he heard a fisherman (sometimes it is a violinist instead) speaking to his apprentice. The fisherman said, “If you hold the string too tight, it will break. If you hold it too slack nothing happens.”
I think for the past month I held my string too tight. As I stood on the scale this morning, I couldn’t believe what I saw. I had gained two pounds. My heart sunk. “This is bull@#$%!” I muttered and got ready for work in a huff. I just couldn’t figure out where I went wrong.
In January I indulged, barely worked out, and went all off budget. In February, I was like a Nazi and it still backfired. I had to find a middle ground. So on my lunch break, I sat down and reworked my budget. My plans for a new car will just have to be put off a little longer.
I also decided to change up my workouts. A few weeks ago, I mentioned to a co-worker that I had always wanted to try P90X. She gave me her copy and said I could keep it. I just need to order a chin up bar. This will be a much more intensive program than I am used to, but I need to do something different. I think I have plateaued and P90X’s whole shtick is that plateaus don’t happen when you are on the program. As for the diet, that doesn’t scare me. I’ve been making diet changes for a while and the bad stuff doesn’t tempt me much.
And yet that new chicken sandwich at Wendy’s keeps calling my name. Damn you Wendy’s and your yummy chicken! Damn you!
Ah, let’s hope March goes better.
Other news, I was able to lower my insurance rates for my car. That will save me a few bucks. And eventhough I felt crappy today because of the scale, I still did my workout. As I went to shower off, I decided to use my most expensive soap, a scrub from Sabon and now I smell so good that it just brightened my mood. (Gotta love that vanilla, lavender, and patchouli.)
When the going gets tough, the tough take a spa day! That’s my little nugget of wisdom for today! I bet Buddah would agree…
Feb 27
End of Month #2
Money hunt resulted in a whole $4.oo. With that stack of cash, I bought oatmeal and bananas. I know, I know. It was a huge bounty! Fancy grocery store (http://www.marvelousmarket.com/) supplied me with bread and plenty of snacks to take to work. So February comes to a close and I just barely make my budget. Tried not to get too depressed as I filled my tank. But it has to be done, otherwise I can’t get to work.
Big thanks to my cousin for driving me to the store (It was an adventure!) and then treating me to a couple of jamacian patties! She has been very supportive of my budgeting, but she did ask me a question that has been on my mind ever since. She asked me, “When would you be done?”
I had to think about that question. I told her that it would be at least to the middle of the year, but more likely to the end of the year. Yes it was a resolution for 2011, but I think that this maybe a habit that I need to incorporate for the rest my life in some form. I think that want to teach myself to live on much less. It does suck to run out of money at the end of the month and get the spare change, but I am learning. As I look back, there were a few places earlier in the month that I could have trimmed and then I would’ve been okay. So I will just take what I know and apply it to March.
I’m not doing this just to get a car. I’m not in credit card debt, student loan debt, or upside down in a house. I really feel like I need to be smarter with my money. I’m going to be 34 this year and although, I didn’t have much debt, I didn’t have much saved either. But now that these other expenses are creeping up, and the economy is not on its feet completely, I just feel that I need to be a lot more restrictive.
One thing that I am sacrificing now is saving for a house. I do want my own place one day, but that will have to go on the back burner for the future. I have been fortunate to have rented some nice places (Except for my first apartment which will have to be another post, because there was soooo much wrong with it!). So I will keep on renting.
On happy news, I am sure that I have lost weight. My jeans are fitting better, so with crossed fingers, I will weigh myself on Tuesday morning. I set a pretty aggressive goal to loose weight this year too (50lbs). So, I am on my way.
Feb 25
Money Hunt! Money Hunt!
So we are coming up on the end of the month. A few weeks ago, I felt pretty confident that I would be on budget… BUT that was before gas prices start to creep up. Now it is the last weekend of the month and I have a tough decision to make. Gas, or food???
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not starving. I have stuff in my pantry. But those weekly things like milk and bread are nice to have around. So with the last $15 in my budget, I will be getting gas. This sucks. This really sucks.
So how am I going to get the food? Answer: Money hunt! I have a box containing all the small change I’ve collected over the year and it is coming with me to coinstar tomorrow. Also, I still have a gift certificate to a fancy grocery store leftover from Christmas that I can use. Soooo, I’m going to be very creative this weekend.
But this situation worries me. How am I supposed to have a solid budget if it is constantly changing? My lifestyle fast is aggressive (by choice), and doesn’t forgive easily. If I start spending more for gas, I either save less for a car, or eat less food. Save less for the car seems like the natural answer, but when your car is constantly in the shop, a new one suddenly gets pushed to the forefront.
Well, I do want to lose weight….
I’m thinking there must be other costs I can lower. Either way, March is going to be interesting. No gift certificates. No money box. I will just be me and the budget (dum, dum, dum!) I’m going to have to be a Nazi about it. But in a way this is good. This month I put money away for the car, emergency fund, school, and started a Roth IRA. I also believe I lost weight by sticking to my workouts, but my weigh-in day is the first of the month, so Tuesday will be the day of truth. All in all, except for the spike in gas, I did very well. We’ll find out on Tuesday, just how well. So the fast is (somewhat) workable, I just need to be more vigilent.
Wish me luck!
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