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My Dream – A Year Later

A year ago, I had a dream that pushed me to take action on my writing career. In the dream I was trying to cross a wide chasm. On one side a footbridge that looked unsafe. On the other side was a steep ice cliff with only hand holds to get myself up to higher ground. Neither one was the “correct” way. Both had their pros and cons. The point was that I had to make a choice.

I’m old enough now to know that inaction is the worst action you can take. Standing still never gets you anywhere. And sometimes, if you don’t make a choice, one will be made for you.

That dream prompted me to take action on my writing career. I leaned into submitting some of my short stories and I ended up getting two published in 2024. I also started my novel and wrote more than I had in 2022 and 2023 combined.

I also got busy joining Instagram, YouTube (really AuthorTube), and added a few more short stories to my Amazon author page.

Today is President’s day in the US. Everyday the news is terrible and as a federal contractor to the HHS, I expect one day the news will be bad for me. The things I can do, protest, boycott, call my Congress people are all great.

But mostly, I need to figure out how I’m going to survive.

What can I do to daily make my (and others) lives easier as we navigate this world? What can I do to manage my stress and anxiety about the world?

I think it is fitting that now, a year later after the dream, I find myself having to make more decisions about my future. So far, I have dug in my heels. I will show up for my job as long as I can. I will do my best to stay healthy (mentally and physically), because now is not the time to fall apart.

And I will write my stories.

Not only is it a respite from the world, but it is also important to me. Being a storyteller has been a guiding part of my life and a core principle in the make-up of my identity. To give it up now would be dumb. Now more than ever I need to show up for myself. I need to remind myself that the world is not going to push me into line and make me give up my dreams. Times are hard and they will get harder.

Don’t give up on yourself.