In some ways, I am a very lucky girl. I have great family, great friends, a cool home, a job, and my health. The basics are covered and I know that I’m not struggling like a lot of folks out there. But sometimes I find myself bummed that I can’t have everything that I want. Those wants sneak up on me and, suddenly, all I want is what I want.
When those moments hit me, I have to take a breath and count what is good in my life.
I’ve been feeling bummed, because ever since I found that Margaret Atwood book last fall, I haven’t found another great book when I go searching. I know. I know. It was such a high to find it and I’ve been chasing that high ever since. Now I realize I may never get it back. So instead, I am going to chase the other high I get.
Writing more stories.
This is a bit of a secret, but I actually feel good when I finish writing a piece. I can’t sit still. I get giddy…yes I used the word “giddy”! I feel so proud that I finished what I started. I just can’t wait to finish something else.
This year I had a goal to get published. But I also want to get stuff done. I have so many half-finished pieces. Things that need a rewrite that sit on my desk. I stare at it and wonder why I am not chasing this high. In the long run it is better for me (and my wallet).
I started this blog about four years ago, because I wanted to put my work up for my family and friends. So far I haven’t put anything up. I know. I flaked. But I want to do better. Last post alluded to some secret projects that I am working on. They are still not done, but hopefully by March 1, I can make some announcements. There, I have given myself a deadline. Let’s see if I hold to it.
I also want to thank everyone who takes the time to read this blog. I actually have people who aren’t related to me, or that I don’t know reading my thoughts. Thanks for sticking with me.
I may have hit upon an unlucky streak with books, but I can feel my luck changing with my writing.
I really am a very lucky girl.